Doubt Is The Writer’s Troll (How To Defeat It!)
I begin writing by feeling inspired, motivated and with an idea that is pushing on my insides, full of potential, wanting and needing to be expressed. The words start flowing, and my fingers dance across the keyboard.
However, inevitably, my fingers begin to slow-down and eventually they come to a complete stop. I feel deflated, uninspired and full of doubt…
Accept that writing is about writing, nothing more and nothing less, it’s not about being perfect. You don’t have to be the next Hemingway. You get to be someone unique and rare. You get to be you. So, be the matchless, remarkable you.
The catalyst to doubt is often a small moment when I pause to rewrite a small error, or become unsure what I am trying to say. These small moments snowball and eventually I am experiencing doubt in a big way.
Small moments of insecurity create huge experiences of doubt.
I wonder if the idea was really as inspired as I originally thought. I wonder what people will think of the work. I wonder if it is any good and I wonder if I am a good enough writer to have begun the project in the first place.
This experience is what Bryan Hutchinson, the author of one of my favorite blogs, Positive Writer, calls writer’s doubt.
Writer’s Doubt is the feeling that creeps up and can stop writing in its tracks. This is also the doubt that prevents us from ever sitting in the chair and getting writing. This is the doubt that leaves projects half finished.
Because Writer’s Doubt is such a universal experience, Bryan Hutchinson wrote an entire book on the topic to help you and me deal with it and overcome it.
In his book, Writer’s Doubt, Bryan shares his own tumultuous relationship with writing.
He shares the doubt he experienced as a child from external critics in his life. Also, he shares his experience of the inner critics that wreaked havoc on the writing process, long after the external ones were gone.
Yet he continued to write anyway. Not only did he fill pages with words for his own healing, but he went on to write highly acclaimed books, and one of the most popular writing blogs on the web.
He has made it to the other side of doubt.
In this book, Bryan shares the wisdom he gained from learning to write in the face of doubt.
He gives us insight into how we may hold ourselves back from being the writers we are meant to be.
He gives us practical tools to move through doubt, to face writer’s block, to keep writing.
He becomes the writing teacher we all wished we had: kind, nurturing, practical and in full recognition of our potential.
Additionally, Bryan writes valuable bonus chapters that provide practical tools and encouragement to put our writing into the world.
He takes out the guesswork of publication and blogging by sharing resources and strategies to take our writing to the next level.
We now have no excuses to not write.
Doubt is the troll under the bridge
While I was reading Writer’s Doubt, I kept thinking about the ugly troll that guards bridges in fairy tales. This is the troll that puts up a fight, the one that asks for a sacrifice, a payment, a duel, before the hero can cross.
For me, this is the perfect image for Writer’s Doubt.
When faced with a journey that will bring us closer to our truth, and that pushes us to grow, we will be faced with this battle.
Doubt, like the troll, pops up to ask us to fight for what we believe in. It puts us through a symbolic transformation. It builds our strength and importantly it builds the fire that we need to really bring out our best work.
Facing doubt, and moving through it, is necessary to find the gold in the shadow.
Doubt is the bridge keeper that indicates we are on the right path. It tells us that we are embarking on a journey that is important. Moving through it, and writing anyway, means we will experience new growth as a writer and as a person, and that’s who we defeat it.
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This happens because when we write, we give our deepest selves air to breathe, to expand, and to take on a life of their own.
When we write we are asked to grow, to heal and to face our fears.
This vulnerability can trigger feelings of resistance, distraction, and the need to retract like a turtle into a hard shell; writing asks us to soften.
However, being vulnerable asks us to feel alive. It is an exhilarating feeling that comes from when we write regardless of doubt.
Your story matters
Reading Writer’s Doubt I am reminded that our stories are important.
Writing our stories is about connecting to our selves deeply and to others.
I am more empowered than ever to keep writing, to keep sharing and putting it out into the world.
We all learn as we go. We fight doubt and fear every day, numerous times a day. But, like Bryan, we must write anyway.
When my fingers start slowing down over the keyboard, I will remember Bryan’s words:
I’m here to tell you as long as you love to write and have the inner desire to express yourself, no one can stop you but yourself.
I trust my fingers will pick up speed once again.
We must keep writing, our stories matter, our voices matter.
Have you ever given in to Writer’s Doubt? How do you overcome it to write words that matter? Share in the comments.
About Jackie Johansen
My name is Jackie and I am a writer. I believe that sharing our stories, and unique voices, can create big, beautiful, positive change in the world. You can find me on my blog finallywriting.com and follow me on Twitter: @finallywriting